ha finally done with the writing and sent it off….
and despite all the feeling about it being incomplete……it still has left me with some pride of some task accomplished………damn…….i need to get out of academia………i am fast becoming a story teller……… :D

Ha now i know, why engineers hate psychology and for that matter all social sciences………….Damn….hope these two years haven’t affected me negatively for life………Doesn’t seem like it……..Especially as i was infected even before coming here and if anything got cured here…… :D

As a matter of fact, the selfishness, what vivek perceived or the untrustability, i sensed were both generated from this cognitive dissonance………hmm…… i hope for his own sake, that he is not doing it intentionally…..and just like misra uses all his gyaan giving as his addictive drink…….. well may be that is worser than alcohol per se….as atleast in the case of alcohol it is a lot more explicit………….

The lack of good, cohesive writing is a boost for Narayanan’s self-esteem, only becoz he sees himself not only as a storyteller but also as a marketeer(just like kent lashing) but wants to believe otherwise………….Didn’t he actually say he can do most of the work, better than the way students actually do it……. Hmm……that is his source of cognitive dissonance(to use heavy terms). May be the evening was not a total waste after all………… :D

Aha it is not as simple as narahari..but that was a good guess…….It actually is all about the writing ……………Writing is what he does and his core competency is……… Damn……… i should have seen that a lot earlier….not surprising at all……..considering his stance as a story teller…………..Hmm…….. now it gets interesting……… and better…….i don’t want to tell a story for a living…………. :D

Ah now i see……it was citing narahari that made narayanan so confident……….. hmm……… a feeling of superiority……..may be i should have said that i wanted a quick and dirty way and so picked up narahari.???????? Hmm………may be……

So Actually i think owning a company is the only way for me to have fun being independant on my own……… but i am scared/not sure of of doing it on my own…….so am looking for a small company where i can find a trade-off between both of these…………..damn that is really lame………….